Let's Do Some Comparing Shall We!

For the better part of my life, I've been a true competitor. I love playing board games, I love being in an environment that allows my competitiveness to move me forward to new heights. Most times, I am in full competition with myself-trying to beat personal bests and all! I know that I was made this way for a reason, most days I can say that my "competitive edge" gives me a lot of benefits. However, there are times when I wish I would just be cool! I've been on a total- let's analyse the crap out of everything in my life lately so that I can become a better person-and in that, I've found that my competitiveness enables my comparison of others feature. Let me explain...

For the most part, I think I'm a pretty nice girl. I do good things and I'm "generally" good. There are sides of me that you don't even want me to tell you about that are pretty nasty. But for the most part, I'm a pretty cool cat (I think??) If I sit here in my competitiveness, comparing myself to other people, I will always be in the middle. I won't ever be as GREAT as Mother Teresa, but I'll always be "better" than someone else... I have decided that this is something I truly need help with because by comparing myself to the uttermost good weighed against the most horrible, I find myself in a mediocre middle state. Placing my judgment butt all over someones face and feeling LESS than someone else. God doesn't see us and say, "Oh Faloula is such a great person, a much better person than chippy-dip over there". He sees us Even-Stevens. We ALL have our good sides and we ALL have our dark sides. We all have a cross to bear, why is it okay for me to think your cross is more awful than mine? It's not!
No matter how we perceive it, NO one on this earth is better than anyone else in God's eyes.

I just want to stop it (tangent: you should hear my toddler saying STOP IT, it's sad but it makes me laugh inside) I want to be able to just work vertically, me and God. Trying to love on all of the people around me and not pretending that I'm either better or less than someone else. You know what I am? Me, just me. I will never measure up to anyone else because I am a unique gal that God loves as equally as the next guy. And that is okay with me.

Stay blessed and stay saucy!

-Libier

Pornography

              Racy title eh? I know what you're thinking, nasty,right? Well aren't you a little curious why I would name a blog this word? Well, party it was to get your attention (and it worked didn't it!?) and partly it was because it has something to do with this week's blog. Go on if you dare....
             I follow a wonderful girl on Youtube that has a website dedicated to changing lives by providing fitness videos and diet tips. I found her about two months ago and ever since then I've been hooked. This gal is amazing and has the strongest body ever. She is a beautiful girl inside and out. Her videos are funny and provide you with the tools necessary to take your fitness goals to the next level with out having to leave your home.  Plus her workouts are super short and easy (NOT! THEY ARE THE TOUGHEST WORKOUTS I'VE EVER DONE!) but short for the most part, which is crucial for me since I'm a mommy on the go! Any who, I hope if she ever gets to read this blog she doesn't get offended. I actually think the world of her even though I've never met her. But here's why I named the blog the way I did. About a month ago I found out that my girl had been in the pornography industry a long time ago and automatically my view about her changed. I all of the sudden felt as if I didn't know her...... (Umm, funny thing is I DON'T really know her but you know what I mean) I was having a really hard time watching her work-out videos and thinking what drove her to do such thing. Here are two parallels at plane sight. She used to be in a taboo industry and now she's helping millions of people transform their lives. What a contrast!  I got to thinking about what makes me anyone to judge her. Here's the thing, if you or I had proof of every thing that we regret in our lives on the internet we would have no excuse to point any fingers at anyone about their mistakes. If anyone could just type in, Libier's mistakes on Google.com,  I would be screwed! The expression, don't point your finger at anyone because you have three pointing right back at ya' is so true to me right now!   I know all of my sins and all the things that I regret in my life and to even just think about them makes me cringe. Can you imagine if it was in plain view for the whole world to see? I would just want to curl up in a little ball and hide. Now,is that what "my friend" has done? NOPE! She is out there being a positive force for the whole world to see and to help people. She found her calling and she never looked back. Who am I to judge her or anyone else?! No one, that is. Why was I letting her past influence how I viewed her now, especially since she's even helping me so much by motivating me and providing me with workouts that have helped me get stronger!
 I think it's funny how our human nature works, I see someone who is doing something bad and I criticize them with out thinking and I can talk about other people's misfortunes like I know what I'm talking about, as if I have nothing in my skeleton closet. But God knows all. He does not see a difference in sin. He sees my sin of judging and being nasty towards others as sad as "my friend" being in porn. I know that's hard to comprehend, but it is true. My thoughts are that I need to quit being a Judgy McJudgerson and just leave that up to God (harder said than done, but it is my goal to be less judgmental). It's amazing the things we can do with God's strength.The changes that can manifest in our souls if we allow his holy presence to be in us and shine. My human nature is way to ugly for me, I know that I NEED God in my life to help me be a better person. And he does every time I let him, every single time!

Thanks for reading folks. Stay blessed and for heaven's sake.... stay saucy!!!