Stay at Home Mamma Jamma!

Here I go on the greatest adventure of my life. I've been ever so lucky to have the opportunity of being a stay at home mother. I have NO idea what I'm in for, but I do know that it is such a blessing that our family has been able to make this life changing shift. So far I've been a mother for five weeks and I can say that they have been some hard times BUT the oh so great times have serioulsy outweighed the difficul times bar none! I love, love, love being a mother so this blog is only to mourn "the career woman in me",because I feel like I owe the old me a fair fairwell. So with out further ado........ First things first,what I will miss the most from my life as a career woman will be my co-workers. They are by far the most amazing group of young ladies I've ever had the pleasure of working with, so funny and smart and beautiful! It felt like we could take over the world if we really wanted to. Several of them have become some of my very favorite friends. I was able to cry, laugh, and share some really juicy secrets with them through out my three and a half years there. I'm going to miss them like nobodies bee's wax.. Second, I am going to miss getting ready for work. Waking up every morning with endless possibilities for the perfect outfit, make that the perfect "look". As getting ready for me was so much more than just the clothes. It was the shoes, the accesories, the make up, the hair; and not to forget the scent. I know I don't have to live in PJ's, which I would never want to do anyway,but I don't exactly feel like getting up and putting on my fishnets and stiletos to go change a diaper. I will have to make lots of play dates and different dates to remain true to the fashionista with in my soul. I will also miss the thrill of buying a 9K time slot on television, I will miss the rush of doing something great at work that just sent me into bliss because I accomplished something I had been working towards. I am going to miss being able to talk to adults on a day to day basis about smart topics. I am defenitely going to miss being able to just run out of the house on an errand with out it seeming like I'm orchestrating a huge Barnum and Bailey circus event. And I am defenitly missing being able to eat when ever I want. Who knew that even going to the bathroom would become something I now had to make time for? And something that I'm going to miss that is actually kind of scary, is being responsible only for myself. The fact now, is that I will forever have the responsability to care for an other person's life. That I have the huge responsability to shape this kids life in a way that she becomes a beautiful person that loves life. I'm greatful for the opportunity but I also know it's a big job. Inspite of all these things Iwill miss, I am defenitely ready to make room for the next chapter of my life. Now my accomplishments include getting a smile from my daughter, being able to soothe her crying and being a super cool, super fly mommy. There is a time for everything and now it is my time to be a mother. Thank God for such a wonderful life!! Stay blessed and love like it's your last day on earth!

I'm a Madre! Oh yeah!

I am a mother! I gave birth to Madelyn on August 5th at 417AM, after 17 hours of labor. She was 8lbs. 1oz. and measured 21 inches…..she is beautiful. The past month of my life has changed drastically. I am a mother! What? Ha, I have never in my life believed more in God and been so present with him than now. Giving birth was the single most amazing feeling I’ve had the pleasure of experiencing. And I know that it was all possible because of God. What a wonderful creator. What a perfect job he’s given my husband and me, to be a parent to this tinny creature that will probably teach us more than we can ever teach her. The months of exciting anticipation wondering what she would look like, what her cries would sound like, what she would smell like; all culminated in that second she was put on my chest after being delivered. The feeling I felt is not something I can explain with words for it was too beautiful and breathtaking. Feelings were at a height with all the movement in the delivery room. People everywhere executing their jobs to get my baby to me once more. Orderly chaos and then suddenly, nothing. Doug and I looked around and there was no one in the room except for him, me, and Madelyn. Whoa, what a strange feeling that was. It was very apparent that we had just begun the next chapter of our lives together. They say that God gives us what we need, not what we want. Doug and I were blessed with a wonderful sleeper, she sleeps 5-8 hour stretches during the night, and God bless her for that. But she also loves to dirty countless diapers. She often decides to pee or poop while we’re changing her, has spit-upitis daily, and her crossed eyes have stolen our hearts. I think that having a baby is God’s way of showing you the kind of love he has for us, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. I can’t tell you of ANYONE that I would allow to poop all over my hand and still be able to kiss their cheeks minutes after (maybe Doug but I’m not 100% sure on that). The love that I feel for her goes beyond anything that I could have imagined. And the love that I feel for my husband now has grown to a level I didn’t think was possible. We created her together and our love made her BE. How cool is that?! I can spend hours upon hours just looking at her and thinking of all the adventures we are going to have together. I am so excited for her life, I feel so grateful to be able to be an important part of her development as a child of God. I pray that God can lead my husband and I to be the best parents we can be for her. If you are a parent you know what I’m talking about and if you’re not yet, you are in for a treat if you choose to have a child someday. May God bless you all and all the babies in the world.