Pornography

              Racy title eh? I know what you're thinking, nasty,right? Well aren't you a little curious why I would name a blog this word? Well, party it was to get your attention (and it worked didn't it!?) and partly it was because it has something to do with this week's blog. Go on if you dare....
             I follow a wonderful girl on Youtube that has a website dedicated to changing lives by providing fitness videos and diet tips. I found her about two months ago and ever since then I've been hooked. This gal is amazing and has the strongest body ever. She is a beautiful girl inside and out. Her videos are funny and provide you with the tools necessary to take your fitness goals to the next level with out having to leave your home.  Plus her workouts are super short and easy (NOT! THEY ARE THE TOUGHEST WORKOUTS I'VE EVER DONE!) but short for the most part, which is crucial for me since I'm a mommy on the go! Any who, I hope if she ever gets to read this blog she doesn't get offended. I actually think the world of her even though I've never met her. But here's why I named the blog the way I did. About a month ago I found out that my girl had been in the pornography industry a long time ago and automatically my view about her changed. I all of the sudden felt as if I didn't know her...... (Umm, funny thing is I DON'T really know her but you know what I mean) I was having a really hard time watching her work-out videos and thinking what drove her to do such thing. Here are two parallels at plane sight. She used to be in a taboo industry and now she's helping millions of people transform their lives. What a contrast!  I got to thinking about what makes me anyone to judge her. Here's the thing, if you or I had proof of every thing that we regret in our lives on the internet we would have no excuse to point any fingers at anyone about their mistakes. If anyone could just type in, Libier's mistakes on Google.com,  I would be screwed! The expression, don't point your finger at anyone because you have three pointing right back at ya' is so true to me right now!   I know all of my sins and all the things that I regret in my life and to even just think about them makes me cringe. Can you imagine if it was in plain view for the whole world to see? I would just want to curl up in a little ball and hide. Now,is that what "my friend" has done? NOPE! She is out there being a positive force for the whole world to see and to help people. She found her calling and she never looked back. Who am I to judge her or anyone else?! No one, that is. Why was I letting her past influence how I viewed her now, especially since she's even helping me so much by motivating me and providing me with workouts that have helped me get stronger!
 I think it's funny how our human nature works, I see someone who is doing something bad and I criticize them with out thinking and I can talk about other people's misfortunes like I know what I'm talking about, as if I have nothing in my skeleton closet. But God knows all. He does not see a difference in sin. He sees my sin of judging and being nasty towards others as sad as "my friend" being in porn. I know that's hard to comprehend, but it is true. My thoughts are that I need to quit being a Judgy McJudgerson and just leave that up to God (harder said than done, but it is my goal to be less judgmental). It's amazing the things we can do with God's strength.The changes that can manifest in our souls if we allow his holy presence to be in us and shine. My human nature is way to ugly for me, I know that I NEED God in my life to help me be a better person. And he does every time I let him, every single time!

Thanks for reading folks. Stay blessed and for heaven's sake.... stay saucy!!!

A Year of Madre-hood. Ay-ay-ay!

           So many exciting things are happening in our lives right now! Maddy is turning one, Doug is thriving in his job, and I am finding amazing blessings each day being a wife, mommy, and homemaker. God is blessing us so much, but if you can please say a prayer for my father. He's not doing too hot right now and he needs prayers all arouund the world! He is going to be okay, but his platelet count is down again and he had to go to the hospital again. Any way please pray for him to recover and to have his platelets multiply!
           This year of mommy-hood has had its shares of ups and downs. The ups have been higher than a stoney boloney on spring break and the lows have been lower than a grandfathers ba... I won't finish that. But I will tell you something, I've been weaning Maddy from the boobie juice for two weeks now and we are now down to just two feedings a day. One in the morning and one before bed. I'm not going to lie when I say that yesterday was the day we were supposed to cut out the morning boob. Annnnd guess what? I couldn't do it. I know that Maddy once she's not nursing anymore is still going to love me and know I'm her momma, but to tell you the truth I feel so nostalgic about this bond being on its final stretch. So I didn't cut the morning feeding because I just want to enjoy the last weeks of nursing her, because really soon she's going to be walking and on to a new phase of her life. It's hard for me to believe that we've made it a year (almost). With 17 more days until my baby girls 1st birthday, there is definitely something going on in my soul that I can't explain. I am sad and I am over my head happy for this marks the first of many birthday celebrations, God willing. I can't even begin to describe what motherhood has done for me over this past year. But I can tell you that something so mundane as just sitting at home and watching my baby girl play with her stuffed animals is something that gets me teary-eyed and I feel this wonderful rumble in my stomach that I have never in my life felt before (and no it's not just gas, I checked for that too). I feel so proud of her when she does something as silly as drink her water from a cup. I could just play with her all day. She's a really sweet baby girl and I hope that I'm doing a good job at being her mother so she can grow up being a confident little girl. I guess I'm so head over heels that the other day I was holding her and just wondering, what was I doing before you? I can't remember life with-out you. Thank you Madelyn for providing me with the circumstances for me to become a better person, growing in patience, kindness, patience, love, patience, joy, ohh and have I mentioned patience? Thank you for your warm smile when I need it the most. Thank you for making me laugh so hard I cry and then I feel like a weirdo that's laughing all by herself at home with no one around aside from you. :) Thank you Madelyn for helping mommy and daddy get closer to God and therefore getting closer to each-other to form a better unit and a even more fantastic team. Thank you honey for your tantrums and your sick days that bring out the best of mommy. Thank you for letting me experience all your firsts. It's been an honor and a blessing being able to stay at home with you and witness every part of your development. I love you Madelyn and I thank God you are in my life every single day! Here's to the second year of this shindig. I hear it's quite eventful, well I say.... Bring it ON!!

Stay blessed and stay saucy!

Perception, perception, perception.

This story is all 100% true, but the people in it are disguised with different names to protect their identity… Read on if you must. The other day I was talking to my friend Falula on my couch and we were disclosing some pretty saucy secrets about ourselves. She was so awesome to be completely honest with me and tell me that when she first met me she was intimidated by me (it must have been my stature and amazing muscles that did it).  She went on to tell me a story where a loooooooong time ago she decided I wasn’t quite made up to be her friend. There was an incident where in doing her make up with a different friend of mine, let’s call her…. Gladys, Falula pulled out her “Wet-N-Wild” eye shadow. As her finger caught the dollop of makeup and slowly and dramatically moved inch by inch, closer and closer to her eye lid……. Gladys gasped the most horrible gasp a girl named Gladys could produce and said; “Why Falula, what in the name of all that’s fashionable and hip are you doing!? Are you really putting “Wet-N-Wild” on your face?! Libier (that’s me) would NEVER do that!” And there you have it folks. Falula for sure thought I was a crazy ol’ make-up freak that would never put the kind of make-up she thought was perfectly okay, on my face. And with a simple piece of data about who I was, she formed a skewed perception of me, and I don’t blame her.

Okay, funny thing is that while yes, I used to be a makeup snob for whatever reason, that single factoid about me did not make up who I was in its entirety. I am sure that there was and is more to me than just liking materialistic things. But,when we don’t have all of the information on a person or a situation, it is very difficult to formulate an accurate report of who they are or what the situation is. NOT to say I’ve never assumed someone was a particular way based on a tinny factoid, just saying that it’s not the best way to figure someone out is all. I’ve done that many times just so you know. But I do believe in getting better and better as a person, and this is something super important because it’s sad to know that some of the things we like or we stand for will be staples of how others view us. And sometimes it’s not in the best light.  I started thinking about people in my life and how I view them, after analyzing my thoughts and behavior I came to the conclusion that everyone is just really scared and we ALL want to fit in and to be liked….dare I say LOVED and accepted. It makes me want to cry that Falula and I couldn’t dig deeper to see if there was more to our friendship other than our disagreement on a brand of make-up. I am glad that she and I have become closer and she now sees that there is more than meets the “wet-n-wild” eye with me. But that took years to happen. What amazing friendships are you losing out on based on your perception of peeps you’ve met?! Can I just say that my priorities have shifted a tiny bit and if you were to look in my make-up bag right this second you WOULD find a compact of “Wet-N-Wild” powder in it, just sayin’. Gladys don’t cry now..

Stay blessed and stay saucy people!