This has been an especially challenging week for me. Started with the nerves about my dad’s surgery. (By the way it went amazing and he’s better than any doctor could ever imagine! Thank you all for your prayers and good thoughts!) Second of all I’ve been struggling with getting accustomed to my new changing body, new “limitations” and this weird lovely bump that resembles a melon protruding out of my abdomen. I’m starting to have trouble doing things that I’ve been doing for years, like bending down, buckling my shoes, making ninja videos etc. But the most challenging thing this week for me came from my feeling guilty of not being able to help Doug out with our old house as much as I would like. We are STILL not completely moved out of it yet, it needs painting and cleaning in order to rent it out and all of this just proved to be way too much for this little ol’ preggo lady. I had a meltdown in front of my husband, fell down to my knees, threw up my arms to the heavens and with a helpless yelp yelled out, “Doug, we’re NEVER going to be done! NEVER! We have sooooo much left to do, waaaa , waaaaa, waaaaaa!” Water works everywhere! Doug, being the cool, calm and collected dude he is told me not to worry and that we were almost done, basically to not get my nursing bra in a bunch. As I thought about it more and more I just felt like I had been making this tinny thing dictate my joy first of all, second of all; If I were to put all the things that we had to do on a scale and weigh them against what we have already accomplished, the scale would tip more towards being done! What was I all worried about!? Sometimes I feel like we humans tend to want to have that “edge”, or stress if you will, because without it we feel like we’re not doing enough. And to boot, most of the time it’s totally self induced but we are so wrapped up in it that we don’t take a second to notice that we are choosing to make this tinny thing dictate how we feel! Take the time to figure out if you’re making certain things bigger than they really are. These little nuisances make all the difference in your quality of life. Find out what’s truly important to you and say good bye to the rest!
This quote sums up my week. If I just had a good attitude about the tasks I have to complete, they would all feel like a piece of cake! Have a great weekend and stay saucy everyone!
“It's so hard when I have to, and so easy when I want to.” ~Annie Gottlier
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