On Thanksgiving day I emailed out to any company I found in a magazine that I thought would need models for their advertisment proposing the idea for me modeling for them and them paying Bridget's dream (an organization here in Sacramento that is commited to helping girls get out of the terror of human trafficking). I knew going in to it that I was going to fight the battle from a stance of victory. I know that God is able to raise a half a million dollars. I just need to trust that it will be done. However there is that skeptical part of me that tells me, "what are you thinking?, this is crazy, ridiculous. Who do you think you are?- AND my favorite one- You're not good enough, no one is going to want to work with you" So to silence all of that mess in my hot head I've been saying scriptures to myself that negate those awful thoughts of unbelif and fear of failure.
The next day after I emailed out, I got an email from Louis Vuitton. A ligitimate email from an actual person wiht a pulse that read my letter of intent and they asked me to mail in a formal letter to a different department for consideration! What the heck!? Is this real? THAT'S HOPE. A formal letter has been sent and I am praying for God to open doors there if that's what he wants.
Then another email with a phone number for someone at Neiman Marcus.... This time I actually got to talk to a person in a high possition at Neiman Marcus. There was hope I was super excited. However, last night they emailed me back saying it wasn't something they could do at this time. REJECTION. I don't know why but I litteraly wept. I had been on such a high from just the tangibility of talking to actual people in the industry and there was hope for some so when I got shut down it hurt so bad. Not just for me but for all the people that need help that I know Bridget's Dream can provide. But we are not giving up. We move forward.
Today Thursday December 4, 2014 I went to midtown Sacramento and wanted to see if I could talk to some friends that might of know of someone in town that did advertising. I prayed that God would lead me in the way to go. I went a round about way because I was killing time before one of my friends would be at work. I turned on some random street and I look to my right and realize there is an advertising company right before my eyes. I stop and it looks closed, I look inside like a Creepy McCreeperson and see a and man with his dog sitting down and I call him over. He answers the door and I tell him my intent and ask him if he does advertising. Well he is the Senior associate of this company so I grab my baby out of the car, along with my headshot and my letter of intent ( If you havent read that click HERE). He hands me his card only it has a diffent name on it. I read it and my mind can't quite place the name but it sounds familiar. I end up saying hey is this Andy from Express Media? Well yes it is! It's someone I used to work with! Bill the senior associate lets me in the back to see Andy and we all talk and I end up showing them the trailer for the movie I just shot in 2012. I don't know what God has planned for this.. But I know it's going to be something. It was a miracle that I "stumbled" across this place. Stay tuned for more of this crazy journey.
I guess I should tell you that on my way home I was laughing histerically and crying histerically at the gratitude and amazement I felt toward God. When I started my relationship with God three years ago I really thought following him would mean a life devoid of excitement. I thought that all my bad habits that he so lovingly has stripped me from were my excitement being stripped from me and I would have some stale life trying to follow God's rules. Boy was I wrong. I have given up so much of my life for him BUT he is given me so much back. My obedience toward him is flawed, it's by His grace that I am saved. I can not do anything to pay him back for what He did for me. But the more I learn who He is, I am willing and wanting to follow him more and more and through that, I have found peace that is worth more than gold. He is an almightly God that can do what we can't. MIRACLES.
Stay blessed stay saucy
I believe in you...
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