My Deepest Darkest Secret

So to contrary believe (in my head), I'm not perfect. *Gasp* *Gasp* I like to think that I could be... (fat chance, haha!) However, I'm personality type A and I'm always trying to better myself inwardly as well as outwardly. I'm constantly thinking of how I can be better, so when I mess up, I feel like running away to Zimbabwe (I don't know why that popped in my head, maybe I subconsciously wanna go there). When I do something wrong, I literary want to just dig a hole and stay in there until I and who ever I wronged forgets the whole ordeal and we can move on with our lives. Well, that behavior becomes difficult once you become an adult. My husband has forbade me to dig any more holes in the back yard... Folks are you ready for this. I made a big mistake recently and I was dishonest with someone very close to me. I HATED the fact that I sinned, but I ABHORRED the fact that it affected someone else. Now I've always been one to think that honesty is the best policy but, I am human and there are many "distractions" in the world that can make even the most goody-two-shoes stray and become a barefoot, bad-dy (just like this joke). I made a mistake and I had to fess up to my dishonesty, yikes!

 Sin, even the littlest one, can be like a super clean windshield with a small dollop of bird crap. Even though your heart is for the most part "clean", your gaze STILL draws to the inevitable bird poo in the midst of your clean windshield. Even when you're trying to pretend there is nothing there, if you ignore your sin and don't bring truth to it, you further yourself from God more and more with each passing day. You can think it's no big deal, all I did was tell a white lie, but God knows and more importantly YOU know that you've done something that is apart from good. That division starts small but if you don't snip it in the bud, you end up with splotches of crap everywhere. Those splotches become more and more accepted by you and your peace and relationship with God starts to waver. NOT because God is pushing you away, but because in the back of your mind you KNOW you've done something wrong and YOU are the one pushing  It would have been easier to take a little Windex and clean off the first little dollop, and just maintain the mess on an ongoing basis. Let's face it we all can have messes on our windshields, we are all bound to. But the faster you come to God with those sins and you let him wrap his blanket of forgiveness on you the faster you'll be taking care of your heart. This is what I was battling with for a while and I finally listened to my conviction to come clean and I have suffered the consequences of my actions, my beloved someone has forgiven me and I feel like I can move on to the next splotch.

I have accepted that I am in no way shape or form perfect and I will probably always have a little poo on my windshield. However, the stronger and stronger I get in my faith, the faster and more conviction i feel toward any sinful nature in my heart. Thank God for His forgiveness. He forgives us faster than we ever will.

Stay blessed and stay saucy!!

The Most Amazing Birthday Ever!

Yesterday was my birthday. I always have a sense of "weirdness" every year on my birthday. I  feel like I should be re-evaluating my life and making sure I'm on the right track...  I am a very spirited and competitive individual and I love competition (mostly with myself, but still) so every year has to "top" the last if you will. Most years of my life I've been pretty happy with what kind of person I've evolved into over that twelve month period. But this year I needed to end my twenty-seventh year of life on a really good note. After a lot of meditation and prayer, I knew I had to some good deed that blessed other people. I knew this because when ever I would think of what I "wanted" for my birthday as far as a present went, I just felt a void and a hunger for something different. While I did run through countless possibilities of what I could ask for from my family and friends I did come across asking for my own very special Marc Jacobs bag-this would have been the most amazing present as it would've had two perks:
 #1.- I could never justify buying one for myself. 
 #2.- For the more obvious perky-perk, they're just gorgeous bags and I've always fantasized about having one. 


However, the more and more I thought about me with my amazing bag hanging off of my shoulder, the more and more I felt a deep desire to take an opportunity... a HUGE opportunity to make a bigger difference in someone's life. I thought, what if I just donate the money. I would take what my husband would of spent on me and just donate it to some charitable place. Nah that didn't feel right. Second idea, WHAT if I ask everyone that might of wanted to get me a little gift to instead of that they just give me some $ and I could donate that to a charitable cause... nah THAT didn't feel right. And THEN I though what IF I make a video and put it on Youtube on my Libby Lu Channel and open it up for anyone who watches it to be able to donate money and I'll take that money and do something amaze-ZING with it!? YES!! But who would I choose to help?


My mom remembered a little orphanage in the town I grew up in, Tizayuca, Hidalgo (in Mexico) that is in desperate need of some lovin'.  I thought what breaks my heart most of all in the world? Kids who don't have their parents and who don't have even the "essentials" we so easily take for granted. BIGGIDY-BAM, SHAZZZAM! There we go. I started with the idea that I would have my sister go to the director of this orphanage and ask what they needed, I would make a video, pray people would help, and then send the money to my sister for her to buy all the needed supplies, and then donate them to those little kids in the orphanage! 


I can not tell you how EXCITED, and amazed I have been this birthday at people's loving hearts. I thought, oh God if I can raise one hundred dollars we'll be blessing those kids soooooooo much. Well it's been a couple of days and we've already raised $435!!!!! WAAAAHHHOOOOO!!!!!!  I can not wait to hear what those kids do when my sister comes to donate all their new, socks, shoes, toothbrushes, school supplies, underwear, blankets, sheets...... the list will go on! I have been blessed beyond believe on this birthday and I can not praise God enough. Thank you to all of the wonderful people who've made this possible! You have amazing hearts! 


This has been the first birthday in my entire life that I've hardly have received any presents. But it has definitely been the most rewarding and amazing ONE! 
Let God show you where he needs you in this world, He's always trying to show us what he made us for, we just need to listen. 


Stay blessed, Stay saucy! 


Here's the link to the website for the orphanage, you can see pictures of the kiddos here. 
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If you want to donate click here. (**DONATING WILL NOT BE ABLE TO BE RECEIVED AFTER 11/20/2011, BUT THANK YOU FOR EVEN THINKING ABOUT IT~)
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If you want to watch my video, here it is!