Bad News Bears

Hi friends and family! Just as I want to share with you they joys of my journey I think I've ought to share with you the difficulties too. If you haven't read the first proposal letter you can do so HERE. Today I started the day so anxious, super frazzled, feeling like ten million things were pulling at me. Feeling like I had no direction. I could have given in to that whim and most days I usually do and I turn out a hot mess at the end of the day. But not today! Today I decided to SLOW MY ROLL! I decided to meditate on what was important to get done. If you're anything like me you're wanting to just GO for the sake of getting more done. But today I've realized that zoning in on what is important and for me, praying about what direction I needed to take today has already lowered my heart rate. I don't feel anxious and I am ready for what the day has to bring. If you feel scattered, slow down. Listen to your body and allow some time for reflecting on what is important to get done just today, and cast everything else out the window! Love you all very much! May your day be filled with joy and peace!  For those of you who like scripture I loved James 1:2-6 today.

I am ending the day with no good news. In fact the company that had said yes last week is pulling back and I am very sad. I will not doubt God in all of this. I will not quit and I will not get discouraged even when all of me wants to just go back to my old life of predictability and safety. I will not quit. This proposal is not just about me modeling or acting. It is not about me at all-perhaps just that my body will be used for something good.  It is about the souls and families of souls that have been previously devastated by a dark force that tried to kill their little girl or their little boy with the grips of sex trafficking. It's for the little girl wondering if it matters that her innocence has been shattered. It's about the husband and wife working through a healing process from his wife being a victim of painful abuse. It's about leaving a legacy of resilience and defiant hope in a creator who can take a broken heart, heal it. Redeem it. And use it for the good of IT and many more people.  With God not one ounce of pain is wasted. This proposal is about helping those who have no voice. Who have no choice but to be slaves. I am sad tonight for this set back.  But I will rejoice in this difficult time of not having any breakthrough because I know it's coming, because I believe who it's coming from!! I don't know when, I don't know how. I just know it's coming. Thank you for your prayers, good thoughts, support and love.  I appreciate you!  

Stay blessed and stay saucy! 

Libier