I was able to share my life with some amazing Jr. High and Highscool kids this Sunday. I have been dreaming of a day where God would give me the opportunity to speak from a very voulnerable place and put myself out there for the sake of people seeing his redeeming power through a broken heart, my very broken heart. To actually experience what I've been invisioning for years was one of the most exhilarating and terrifying moments ever. I had a different feeling afterwards than what I thought I would have. I was emotionally exhausted from exposing my life story so candidly to so many people all at once, but thrilled to hope that my story would inspire many to belive God and trust Him. I am called to be a servant of God and in that servitude, there are often things that I would rather not do because I am scared to be judged, scared to fail, scared to succeed, scared to be persecuted yaddy.yaddy.yada! It is in the moments of vounerability and weakness that God can show his power and glory and that's where my servant heart comes in. I need to be reminded everyday that I want my own glory more than I want God's on a daily basis. Accepting that and dying to that daily... sometimes hourly is necessary for me to live my life for God and let Him have the glory He deserves. I am alive to be a confirmation of the light NOT to BE the light. I am responsible for using the talents and abilities He gave me to serve others; and telling my very broken story is just one of those things God has called me to do. I am so grateful for all the awful things that have happened to me. Without them I would not be who I am today. With out them I would not find God as my biggest satisfaction. Without them I would not truly trust God with my life and my family (As much as this wicked little sinner can trust Him- I don't boast on my power to trust the Lord, I boast on His amazing power to help me trust Him.) Without them I would not have compassion and love for my neighbors. Without them I would not understand God's grace and therefore be able to extend it to myself and others. I don't think it will ever become "easy" to share my story but I hope that when I die people don't remember me for the "easy" things God helped me accomplish.....
Stay blessed and stay saucy!
-Libier
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